Tainted Love.

As I have been wanting to get a little bit more into alternative style modelling, but haven't been in front of a camera for an extremely long time, my aspiring photographer friend was nice enough to give up some of his time to take some photos for me to possibly use in my new portfolio!

So here is a quick look at some of them!

They pretty basic before and would took them at about 1 in the morning so the lighting was horrendous! That's why I put an effect/filter on them to just lighten them up and make the colourings look a little bit better!

I literally just put a filter on and didn't do any other retouching at all!

I really like the way they came out!

What I'm Wearing/Makeup:

Makeup- Face: Nivea Daily Moisturizer, Dior Skinflash Primer, Dior Forever Foundation, Dior Nude Concealer( not sure the exact type, but it's from the nude range) Bourjous Chocolate Bronzer, MAC Dainty, MAC Marilyn Beauty Powder (LE, can't remember the name of the top of my head and it was a limited edition one anyway that's no longer available).

Eyes: Urban Decay Primer Potion, MAC Painterly Paint Pot, Urban Decay Naked 3 Palette (post on this look coming soon!) Rimmel Scandal Eyes Liquid Eyeliner Pen, Essence 2 in 1 Mascara (both ends), Loreal Paris Volume Million Lashes Mascara. Urban Decay "Blackout" Eyeshadow from The Smokey Palette. Miss Adoro Eyelashes in 100.

Lips: MAC Snob patted on very lightly, YSL LipStain 16?

Clothes- Lingerie Bra - Matalan

Heartbreaker Vest- New Look

Blazer- Charity Shop

Jeggings- Pink Clove.

I've lost 30lbs in the last month and a half and theses are the results so far! I'm pretty pleased to be honest! Check out and follow my weightloss blog !

Thanks for reading and I hope that you really liked these pics?

My new blog schedule starts on monday, links will be below.

Thanks for reading!

Bridget-Nicole

xo

Links:

Weight Loss Blog

Music Blog

Fashion And Beauty Youtube

Weigth Loss Youtube

Twitter

Instagram: xfatshionx

bnm xo

Blog revamp/relaunch! (Important info!)

Hey darlings!

So basically I am going to completely revamp and relaunch this blog. I have quite a few various projects going on and this is definitely going to be one of them from now on! 

This is will be my FASHION,  BEAUTY and LIFESTYLE blog from now on.

It will include the obvious fashion and beauty posts but it will also have lifestyle posts too. These will range from a variety of things. From personal posts, to home decor ideas, to inspirational things. Basically it will be anything I want to blog about that doesn't fit into a category catered for on one of my other blogs!

That will remain on here:

WHEN SHADOWS REMAIN 

www.whenshadowsremain.blogspot.co.uk

Posts will be at least three times a week and will be on either a Monday, Wednesday or Friday.

The schedule will be:

Makeup Monday (Beauty Post)

Fashion Friday (Fashion Post)

Whatever Wednesday (Lifestyle Post)

There may be more things posted a week but WILL NOT be less!

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I have made a WEIGHT LOSS blog solely for my weight loss, health and fitness journey.

I also have a weight loss Youtube channel now.

This will not be a scheduled blog but will be updated extremely regularly. Most likely something will be posted whether it be a short update or a in depth post. 

There will however be at LEAST one post a week which will always be on a Tuesday and will always be a progress report/weigh in/update!

They can be viewed here:

Weight Loss Blog

Weight Loss Youtube

I will be updating regularly about my progress on that matter and many other personal things on my Twitter and Instagram. 

They can be found here:

Instagram: xfatshionx

Twitter

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I have also made a music blog where I will be reviewing and posting about music. Mainly Metal and things along those lines but I'll probably mention music in my lifestyle posts on Wednesday on this blog!

I don't know how often I will keep up to date on this website but will most likely post something on a Saturday and probably also a Tuesday. But no promises as that's more of just a side thing for documenting my music reviews and stuff.

If you're interested in checking this one out, please follow this link:

Music Blog

Finally, I have a fashion and beauty Youtube Channel.

I'm going to try and upload at LEAST once a week and that will probably be on a Sunday, though again I am not too sure. This will be where I post all of my hauls, OOTDs or lookbooks and where I do my more personal videos. If you would like to check that out and subscribe that would be amazing!

Fashion And Beauty Youtube

And finally I have a new email address that you can contact me on if you have any questions, feedback, need advice or just want to chat.

It is:

witheringshadowsblogging (at) outlook (dot) com

I hope this helps you get to know where all my other blogs and sites are and I hope you check out and maybe follow/subscribe to the sites you would like to see content from me on or that you are interested in?

I love chatting to people and making new friends and I also like to give advice so if you would like to maybe follow me on twitter and have a chat that would be awesome! If it would be a long conversation then emailing me would be awesome!

Thanks for your patience while I plugged all that lot! Hahaha!

- This blog will not be active until I have revamped it and then it will launch again! It should only be a couple of weeks whilst I get a layout and better design sorted but in that time I will be completely active on all the other sites mentioned above and will update on twitter a lot. 

Please keep checking back and please follow me or subscribe to me on my other outlets. I do try and put a lot of time and effort into my blogging and videos and love getting feedback. I also like constructive criticism and things I can improve on so I would love some ideas on that. Also if you have any suggestions for types of posts I could do/that you enjoy. 

Thanks for reading and hope to see a few more youtube subscribers, twitter and instagram followers and followers on my other blogs ;) lol.

Thanks!

Bridget-Nicole

xoxo

Where Have I Been + Updates!

Hey beautiful creatures!

How are you all doing?

So I am aware that I have been away for such a long time and this one is mainly for my followers. First of all THANK YOU for following my blog and/or youtube! Sometimes I feel terrible because I feel like I am letting you all down. I want to kind of talk about a few things today.

But first where have I been? 

To be completely honest, I've just not been feeling great. I am mentally ill and quite severely depressed (which I am not using as an excuse) but sometimes I just don't want to put myself out there and interact. I have been having a difficult time with life at the moment! I don't want to be a debby downer but it's true and one of the main things I pride myself on is being open and honest. I'm not going to go too much into it but it stops me from doing a lot of things in real life and also online. Sometimes I think I can kind of be someone else online because no one knows me but I'm kind of sick of not being ME! 

Which brings me onto the point:

I hate the clothes/style I have! 

This might sound really stupid as I have a fashion blog, but honestly... I HATE "MY" STYLE!

Main reason being because it really isn't my style. It's not how I want to express myself, it's just my defense mechanism. I am actually a lot more "Alt" in real life. I tend to only really wear black and my style is and always has definitely been a bit different. Now I'm not saying I look completely goth or scene or emo or alternative or whatever sterotypical label normal people would give me, but I definitely dress differently from most of the people I know and my friends.

But I always cover it up on the internet and even in some extent on the internet. I don't know why and it actually really upsets me thinking I felt the need I HAVE to not express myself and dress the way I WANT to dress!

I really want to start dressing how I want to dress and I don't even give a shit anymore if I look weird. I've already started aiming my style a little bit more towards what I want it to be with my makeup and hair. But I've always warn reasonably dark makeup. I dyed my hair to be "different" but also to be happy. You see I am a very confused individual and after years of social anxiety and not fitting in (when I looked quote on quote "normal") I put my walls up. I dumbed down my identity and I sacrificed my self expression to fit in. But it never even worked. I wasn't anymore excepted and I just felt like a complete and utter sell out. 

I'm not saying I'm going to switch completely overnight and next time you see me I'll be in all black and have a shit load of piercings (though I do have a new tattoo and am planning my half sleeves! WAY more of a tattoo person that a piercing person!) and look completely different. Because it doesn't work that way. I'm not a poser or a wannabe, well in some respects I guess I am. But I just want to dress the way I want to dress. I  have no friends. At all! So it's not like I'm going to start dressing/looking this way to fit in with a certain scene or group of people. NO. I'm doing this for me. 

I'm sick and tired of trying to cover up who I am and who I want to be. If I want to wear all black, heavy makeup, backcombed hair and have tattoos, I will do that! I don't really care what people have to say to be honest and I don't care about being sterotyped. 

To be honest I just want to delete my old youtube and start again because I know this will probably start shit but I don't really care too much. That being said, even though I don't care if it starts shit (because I don't actually care about irrelivant people's opinions anymore) I just can't be bothered to DEAL with the shit. There is definitely a difference. I started this blog and my youtube to express myself but by being careful and even I guess FAKE I just am defeating the object of why I started it.

UPDATES:

I got a new tattoo on my arm. Go to my instagram @trisexplicit to see it!

I'm planning to get both my inner forearms ( I think that's the area LOL) completely done and have someone VERY special (HOPEFULLY) designing my tattoo design! EEEK!

I'm learning how to metalcore scream, growl and yell. (Wanted to do this forever!)

I'm start a solo metal project called Tris Explicit. 

I'm thinking of getting a lip piercing.

I am now 19!

I had a great birthday!

I *MAY* be seeing someone ;) 

And yes I can't really think of anything else to be honest. Apart from the fact that I am a lot happier with myself and my life than I have been for a while.

Hope this wasn't too boring. And here is the pic of what my hair was supposed to look like/did look like originally: 

OOTD- Going Gothic + BLOG UPDATES!

Hello darling's! Long time, no see!

So I have quite a few things I need to get off my chest as you may have noticed, if you keep up with this blog and/or have been a previous visitor. I haven't been posting :( 

MAIN REASON!:

I haven't really had the time or the motivation to blog! Long story short, I started college a couple of weeks ago and due to my social awkwardness, I needed a lot of time to prepare for that environment again!

That being said, I also lost my love and inspiration for blogging and youtube. I don't really have the most creative mind and I find it quite difficult to stick at things.

I am DEFINITELY back because I really love blogging and I really enjoy making youtube videos also!

I just need to make a little decision about what I want to do. I'm going to make a video making and blogging schedule and decide what "niches" and "genres" (I guess) I want my youtube and blogs to focus on!

Corset: Ebay

Now onto less boring things! I love playing dress up and a couple of months ago I went through one of my more "gothic" stages. I love symphonic metal music and after spending hours obsessing over my fave symphonic metal bands, ordering a ton of CDs and wasting my life away watching music videos, I decided to get all dolled up and channel my inner "goth chick".

So here is what I did:

My studded leather jacket is from Yours Clothing. It was around £35 in the sale (I can't REALLY remember the exact price in the sale because it was a couple months ago) and I wear it religiously. Even with "normal" outfits! I wish I had some close ups of the studding details, but it's beautiful!.

Ignore the incredibly awkward pose! 

The main outfit was made up of an awesome corset I bought ages ago from Ebay! It was about £20 excl. postage, which was a couple of pounds, and is great quality! I can't remember the actual seller, but it was a plus size Ebay lingerie store. I'd wanted a corset for ages and this one is a little bit too much now I've seen a few, but I love this one and will definitely be looking for some more to buy for when I get in a dress up mood!

I paired the corset with a long, black maxi skirt from Yours Clothing. I bought the skirt a year or so back and it fits really nice. It was around £24 if I remember correctly, but it's nothing special and I'm sure you could find a cheaper alternative somewhere. I wanted the look to be a bit more traditional, so that's why I wore a skirt instead of leggings or black jeans!

I also paired the outfit with some long, black satin gloves! I found these on amazon for a bit less than £10! I don't really know why I bought them to be honest but I really like them for adding something to outfits like this and I knew I would find a use for them one day!

My serious face says it all!

For makeup, I didn't want to overdo it with a black or purple lipstick (though I did actually try a couple different colours on) and I thought red might clash with the corset colours, so I went for a nude!

For the eyes, I wanted a dark, smokeyish look. I didn't actually get any pictures of the makeup itself so the above photo is the best I could do to be honest!

I don't think I did anything amazingly out of the ordinary here so I'll leave it at that for makeup!

I really enjoyed dressing like this and I actually recreated the look (minus gloves) for a professional photoshoot I did!

But this time I DID go with a dark purple lipstick!

I really enjoyed the gothic experience and I love the style in general!

Really hope you enjoyed my first blog post back!

http://www.whenshadowsremain.blogspot.co.uk

When Shadows Remain

Bridget-Nicole

xoxo